Cherry Torn

21/09/06 - HEARTACHE

I had a strange dream the other night. I was lying on an operating table with Moebius standing beside me. He was holding my hand and I was looking up at him with a smile on my face reminiscent of a Hollywood baby delivery. He cut a straight line down my chest and then reached down to take out my heart.

It didn't hurt and I was so happy to be giving him my heart. There was no blood...I could feel the love gushing out of me instead. But I didn't die. I couldn't figure out why I didn't die, so I stood up and walked around very slowly. Something told me that if I didn't move fast or get excited I could live without my heart.

Moebius says it is a metaphor for something. What do you think?

It was one of many weird dreams that have been entertaining me at night. Moebius cutting out my heart happened somewhere between being fucked to the point of orgasm for what felt like hours (but never reaching it) and being woken up by "doorbells" over and over.

My evenings have been spent watching sappy movies that make my little pigdog heart crack. My attitude about moving back to England changes more often than a Myspace addict changes their eyeliner. My family means so much to me I can hardly bear thinking about leaving.

On the other hand I'm excited about going back. I want to drink legally and be topless at fetish clubs. I want to see our friends. I just want to be in England. The city, the architecture...it's beautiful in a way that cannot compare to any American city I've been to so far.

10 Comments

Mantwells said:

Your dreams are nearly as exciting as your real life. Hope that you find what it could mean.

21/09/06 - 03:29AM

Arin said:

It might mean that you Subconsciously think of Moebius as an integral part of you. Without whome, you may still function, but you'll be empty and without a feeling of any kind. You feel you may not be you without him, and he completes you.
Don't go by what I say though, I'm usually not that good at reading into dreams lol.

22/09/06 - 06:09PM

Arin said:

Btw, I wanna order Scat Superstars tonight, probably to download off the hwvmedia site. You said your link is working now, but the change of address since you're moving back and everything...you might not get your cut from them? Should I wait till you update your information with them, or they only deal with your bank n where you're living doesn't mean anything?
Let me know soon if you can please hun, thanks.

22/09/06 - 06:11PM

Cherry Torn said:

Arin: You can go ahead and do it, our moving doesn't matter.

22/09/06 - 07:21PM

Dani said:

I miss you bitch. Hope your flight was safe. See you soon, hopefully. ♥

25/09/06 - 12:47PM

Cherry Torn said:

Dani: Thanks babe!

Arin: Sorry, had to delete your third comment. In depth questions about dvd's should be sent to my email.

27/09/06 - 04:43PM

Arin said:

Oh shit, sorry totally slipped my mind lol I'll email you about it. So when are you going back online hun, since you're probably back in england now all settled? Did you decode that video you guys made yet, or didn't get around to it yet? I miss your gorgeous smile babe.

02/10/06 - 12:10AM

Dani said:

Get on yahoo, bitch. I miss you. Tons.

07/10/06 - 10:42PM

Yellow said:

White Devil! You never go on!

08/10/06 - 09:07AM

Arin said:

We all miss are nasty pretty princess, get that hot ass online soon woman! Waiting sucks :*(

09/10/06 - 03:55AM